What's going on

So yeah, I guess I havn't been blogging so much.  Work pretty much takes it out of me each day.  Speaking of work, I SO can't wait for my maternity leave!  Seriously.  Anyone remember how Pam from The Office described her maternity leave?  That's what I'm looking forward to. ha.  I've taken very little vacation time this year, especially ever since I found out I was pregnant; I've wanted to save it all for after she's born.  Or at least until December in case I decide to go out a little early.  And speaking of early, I wouldn't mind if this chicadee came early.  Just a little.  Just so we're not spending actual Christmas Eve and Day in the hospital.  Anytime after 12/15 is fine with me!  My iPregnancy phone app says Karlyn will be full term (37 weeks) on December 5th.  But I'm also not kidding myself either.  I know with first babies, it's more often late than early.

I got the cutest wooden letters for her room tonight!  *K A R L Y N*  They're wooden and thin and loopy :-)  I need my crafty MS friend Haley to help me paint and mount them...I want to hang them by ribbon but I definitely need some help.  I'm so not good at that stuff!  I also found a really cute pink and cream light switch cover.  I need to visit Hobby Lobby more often. 

I went on a walk tonight...hadn't walked all week, and it's definitely a different feeling now.  My exercise has pretty much been non-existent lately and after work the couch just calls to me.  I feel like the working out I did more at the beginning though really helped and even though I've gotten multiple comments, the doctor on Monday said that everything is measuring just perfectly.  Everyone carries differently, she told me.  I'm excited because my appointments are now every 2 weeks, anddd on the 22nd, we get another sonogram!  It will have been 13 weeks since we saw her and I cannot. wait.  My eating's been pretty regular.  I've indulged in Ben & Jerry's Pumpkin Cheesecake ice cream and tonight I decided I wanted a bacon cheeseburger.  But I'm still eating pretty normally throughout the week and trying to keep some salads and fruit in my diet.  I heart yogurt.  And tonight I bought groceries to make Colleen's delicous chicken tortilla soup and some easy shepherd's pie.

I find I'm waffling (sp?) between emotions these days.  Pure excitement.  Sheer panic and terror.  Um, labor anyone?  Peaceful calm.  Anxious.  Moody.  It's getting closer but we still have a little ways to go too.  I haven't read all the books I've wanted to - working on some and need to start on others - but then my boss told me she couldn't remember a thing she'd read after her little girl was born.  Do I head to the movies while I still have some freedom or practice my swaddling technique?  Don't know how to do that.

I'm so task oriented and I like staying busy so I try to keep a list going of things I need to do so I'm not just sitting around waiting.  But naps are great too.  I found a December 2010 pregnancy forum on my phone through one of my apps that is fun to read through since all the moms are due that month, so I like to do that before bed.  And play words with friends :->  Even though Heather kills me!

So here we are.  8-ish weeks away and finally people can tell that I'm pregnant :)  I'm enjoying that and my bump.  Seeing my stomach move is so funny and makes my worries and fears melt away for a second.  I wonder what she'll look like.   And I think about the fact that this kid is going to have 7 uncles and 2 aunts.  And 4 crazy-about-her grandparents. 

I'm scared. and excited. and tired. and nervous.  I don't think I can do it and the next second I know that everything will be ok.  It's going to be a Christmas to remember :>